Elegance today is underrated.

Since radically healing myself starting in early 2017 and moving to Denver, I’ve been living a life of color. I can feel the richness of human experience- the highs, the lows, the light-filled existence of it all.

There is something magical about looking your best every day. You are showing the world, actively, who you are, what you are capable of. Signaling that you are extraordinary.

We must never stop questioning everything. Sometimes it's the beliefs we hold so strongly that are our biggest adversaries to living the lives we were made for.

I've been focusing on aligning my energy and on femininity, on how I dress and present myself to the world, on my body and giving it what it needs nutritionally, putting muscle on it and marking it physically stronger.

We are never done doing our work. Sometimes it can look deep, digging into past trauma to find deeper significance or meaning in our current reality. Sometimes it can be a simple as changing our appearance, how we carry ourselves.

It is everything in our nature to control. To try to control events that happen to us, the way other people see us, the way we heal. We all have a vision for how we want our lives to look, who we want to be with, various circumstances. But the truth is, we are never in control.

This means when conflict arises, we respond authentically and in-line with who we are and what we demand of ourselves and of the people in our lives. It means we remain honest in our relationships and if we don’t like something, we vocalize it and we confront it like the men and women we are.

What do you dream about? What is it you desire? When you close your eyes, focus your attention inward, into your heart, what do you see? What song does your muse sing to you?

Self-discipline is the path of the warrior, because we will always be at war with our own mind until we develop the power to control it. Only when we hold this power do we hold the keys to the universe.

I realized that spirit, divine energy, is expansive in nature, and we will always be left wanting more, that nothing will be enough and that this is good. It allows us to continue expanding and reaching.

When I get stressed or anxious, my body freezes up.

If we are looking for true freedom, true self-mastery, we need to always stand in truth, even if it is met with resistance or with anger. ⠀

So many of us are afraid to be alone. This is a big indication that we still have work to do with integration, with loving ourselves and our demons, our shadows, with living in our wholeness.

Only in integrity can we ever be free.

Creating wholeness within ourselves is the path of self-mastery.

Last week on a trip to California, I admitted to myself in conversation with my closest girlfriends that I have been using Instagram as a form of resistance, as a painkiller, to avoid being with myself.

As much as I wish otherwise, Mother’s Day is always painful for me.

Last night, my creative resistance came to a head. I've been resisting doing my work for weeks, my mind finding any excuse to avoid sitting down and writing my story.

Are you emotionally slutty? It is every part of my nature to want to connect, to go deep, to feel fully and completely. I love this about myself but it can get me into trouble if I engage in this way with the wrong people.