She Lives
Welcome to another edition of,
Musings & Rabbitholes:
A Newsletter About the Most Interesting Things.
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She lives.
Hi Morgan, long time! Yes, I abandoned your inbox, fled the country, and became the most tan version of myself I never knew could ever exist but here we are. Hello. Have we met? I'm Morgan May, I use the terms "Musings and Rabbitholes" to mask my otherwise agonizing ADHD symptoms, am horribly inconsistent with just about everything in my life (except creative resistance), and am in denial that all of these behaviors mirror one's relationship with a non-committal fuckboy. Whatever, just surrender to the trauma bond and let me love bomb the crap out of you while we're together (the dopamine hit is just too good to deny anyway).
It feels so stupid but this one small change has single handedly brought me back to life. It's inspired a new level of self-care that has been slowly changing my relationship to myself and the world. Not to be dramatic or anything. For the haters who will say its fake:
Double Life
Not only have I been a total fuckboy (takes one to know one, download the Fuckboy-Free Dating Guide today :), but I have been living an entire double life with a second family and everything. If you didn't already know, I'm now creating content on TikTok about the most polarizing and inflammatory subject matter like ex- feminism, veganism, and big pharma. And to all of you here from this wave of my internet journey, HELLO, welcome, love you, thanks so much for being here :)
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Now, without further ado I bring to. you Edition V of,
Musings & Rabbitholes:
The Newsletter That Got Away.
Narcissist-Sociopaths
Perhaps one of my most fascinating finds as of recent is a diagnosed female sociopath on YouTube who creates content about her condition. She is acutely self-aware and hyper-intelligent, creating binge-worthy content I can't get enough of.
The Shadow-self of Motherhood
I had the privilege of interviewing a friend about her experience with postpartum depression while isolated in a small apartment for consecutive months during lockdown in NYC. She shared her story of a very raw, vulnerable side of motherhood, the side often left shrouded in darkness.
Ego Death
Possibly the deepest rabbithole ever to exist is that of DMT, of which I've been exploring via Ayuascha. DMT is coined the "spirit molecule." It is associated with divine experiences and hacking the matrix, basically. I've found it to be akin to 40 years of therapy in one night, by far the most powerful tool for self-healing I've found yet.
We have all been there. Coming to our senses after dating the wrong guy for too long, wasting precious time, beauty, youth on men that just weren’t it.
In this free, 24-page guide you will find:
F*ckboy Characters: The many shapes and sizes of unavailable men
F*ckboy Flags: Behaviors and characteristics to lookout for, and run from
F*ckboy Bait: The things we do as women to attract solicitation from f*ckboys
Top 6 Dating Secrets: The most crucial things you need to know to start winning in love
Romantic Prospect Assessment Tool: An objective template to maintain objectivity in your dating experiences, to protect your heart, time, and beauty.
It's time to get out of your feels, into your senses, and slay the dating kingdom like the queen you were born to be.
For those of us who are not painfully aware, Mercury is retrograde now through June 22nd. This means that all things relating to communication, technology, and travel are extra screwy. It's a potent time for self-reflection, going inward, revisiting old projects (ahem), and planning. I found a beautiful article describing this using the metaphor of Hermes' decent into the underworld to save Persephone here.
The Best Self Journal has been slowly changing my life as of the last few months. I wouldn't consider myself a "doer," more like a sitting in the confines of my mind until my thoughts eat me alive, but this is helping me to change that. It breaks down my goals by month, week, day, and habit. For any fellow planner and/or office supply nerds, definitely check this out.
I've been living in Mexico for the past 6 months and have slowly accumulated some sounds along the way. If you like your music with a blend between Mexican cartel rap and spiritual enlightenment, this might be just the mix for you.r story online can make all the difference.
Thats enough.
Alright, alright. This was fun, let's do it again soon. Hit reply and let me know what you have been up to and where your rabbitholes have taken you lately, dying to catch up with you too.
Until next time beautiful human :)
In Truth & Love,
Morgan May
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