Healing From Emotional Trauma
Just as a fish doesn’t know it’s in water, often times we ourselves don’t know we inhabit dysfunctional living environments, especially when we are born into them. Until I was 26 years old, this was the case for me. I was born to a narcissistic mother who was incapable of loving me. I was conditioned to believe that the pain that ensued from unrelenting emotional abuse was my fault, being gaslit, manipulated, and mind-fucked constantly, always punished as a child, and made to feel worthless and unlovable through emotional neglect.
When I was about four years old, I was driven to “the orphanage” after disagreeing with my mother, a power struggle that showed me I was easily disposable and she was always right. At 26, I pieced together parts of my past. After a particularly heinous fight with my mother, I slowly realized that I had been emotionally abused by her my entire life, and started targeting this trauma instead of the previously misunderstood symptoms of it. I tapered off the five medications I had been prescribed, started treating myself holistically with CBD and diet, and switched to psychodynamic and hypnosis therapy approaches to get to the root of my pain and faulty programming.
I went from barely surviving- anxious, miserable, no self-worth, isolating myself from the world- to truly thriving today, still doing the work of unearthing, understanding, and healing from emotional trauma. If you had a difficult parent, upbringing, living environment, etc., and you struggle with negative mental health symptoms today, I urge you to explore your past in the context of trauma. This was the most powerful key that unlocked the path to my authentic self, to happiness, and to more fulfillment than I could have ever imagined. I am far stronger today because of it.
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This piece was originally featured in a April 8, 2019 post on Instagram.
